An "Insider" Look at Survivor: Vanuatu, Episode 3: The Inside of My Eyelids

Is it just me, or has this season of Survivor been incredibly dull? The men are Pagonging their younger members already and no one on the planet knows the deal with the women. So you'll excuse me if I'm not thrilled about "Insider" footage of a show that I didn't enjoy watching in short form.

J.P.'s Final Words: He learned that he needs to pay attention to people around him, to listen more, instead of being judgmental. He needs to connect with people, no matter who they are. He learned to look at himself from the inside out, not the outside in. Who is J.P.? What does he have to offer? What can he do to help? He needs to stop evaluating people and respect people's backgrounds and where they come from, and show a little more sensitivity to people.

What surprised him the most was the culture. He had no expectations except for textbooks. To experience a culture that has been around for hundreds of years with the spirituality and the idols, was amazing, He respects the land and is thrilled to be a part of it. To be welcomed as strangers and put on pedestals as males was great.

They were divided right away into male/female tribes, that was a huge surprise. His skills would have come out more among the females. Big surprise. Out of everything, that was most overwhelming.

He walks away with the appreciation of life. The essentials of life like food and water, and what makes people tick. He's not going to be judgmental and look at people from the outside anymore. He will look at what makes that individual tick, why they're so special. Out here you have to be more sensitive, you're walking on eggshells, you have to be aware of what you say. The elements of who we are, what makes him look at people different. The essentials of life - fire, water, shelter from cold. These are the things he will take and utilize and mold him as a human, and pass on what he has learned. "What an uplifting experience!"

J.P. the Day After: He'd planned on staying longer. Yeah, we kinda figured that. The level of sensitivity played a role, you have to have a shell, what you say and how you act plays a role in how people perceive you. He wasn't aware of his surroundings in that aspect. He thinks he said things in jest that were offensive and people took it personally. His mistake, but when you're starving and thirsty, you have to have fun, some people had fun at his expense.

His overall experience was appreciation of life (not taking the elements of life for granted). Five days on an island was a great experience. Five days with no food and no water - he'll look at food differently now. His senses will be more acute. He appreciates food and water so much more. He was the fire starter, he tried, they were really close,. looking at a flame will always take him back to trying to start it with bamboo. The camaraderie in the building of camp was an uplifting experience.

He learned don't judge from the outside, what size, shape, color, religion someone is but get to know them. There was a level of sensitivity, he was afraid to say anything at one point worrying that it would be taken wrong, he was even afraid to take off his shirt because he would be a threat for being physically fit. Meow. They thought, correctly according to him, that they could not compete with him in the long run, so he said they should have used him to their advantage in strategy. Whatever that means. But there was an alliance of five, there was no room for him.

If he could do something different, he would hope it would be mixed tribe. Because he's so irresistible, I guess. Initially when he realized he was on a tribe of all men, he thought they would win every challenge. They lost the first two, and also he formed alliances with the younger guys. If he could, he would have treated everybody the same, gone on some walks to the creek with the guys, but he was judging on how they looked, not who they were.

Having Jeff say the words, "the tribe has spoken," he thought he would never hear. It was an empty, lost feeling, he hopes he never feels that way inside, like being in a dark room. To look back, to hug them, he understands, he wishes he would have played smarter.

Mia's Final Words: It changed her life, (so you're not a hideous brat anymore?) she took a lot for granted, having seven days with nothing to do except, well, there was a lot to do (not that she did any of it) but there was a lot of time to think. Being stripped of everything she's used to having around makes you appreciate the little things in life. She had an amazing bond with Julie and Dolly, and she's glad she met them and feels like she made a friends for life. Not eating, sleeping, drinking, but coming together and winning challenges, it's amazing how the body recovers so quickly to go into a challenge strong.